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Yeah yeah, I know, I should stop writing those whiny, lamenting entries about how much I have to study. My time would be better spent studying. And besides, no-one's forcing me to do this. I could go to nursing school for three years and then work in a hospital or something. Or I could just get a job as a janitor somewhere.
The thing is, though, I really wanna be a doctor. I know that I would love doing what they do, and I think I would be good at it. I also know that you have to know all that they're teaching me here at university to be a good doctor. The thing is, though, that memorizing things gets me down. I dont mind studying, but having to memorize pages and pages of Latin bone names, muslces and medical terminology makes me mad, and it makes me depressed. I'm not very good at it, either. I'm better at grasping concepts.
There are things that they're telling us about that aren't only about memorizing things. Histology, for example - where they tell you about the structure of cells and tissue and stuff. Or Biology - Genetics, more precisely. I didn't quite get the point of the Microbiology lecture, but Genetics was interesting. But then, you got Anatomy. Bones were first, now it's muscles. With every muslce of the body, I have to know how it's called in Latin, I have to know where it's fixed to the bone, I have to know what it does, and I have to know which nerve innnervates it. All in medical terminology, of course. And I have to know all of this until November 30th.
It's not that I can't do it, but it depresses me only to think about it. I really want to be a doctor, but I don't know if I can get through six years of this.
The thing is, though, I really wanna be a doctor. I know that I would love doing what they do, and I think I would be good at it. I also know that you have to know all that they're teaching me here at university to be a good doctor. The thing is, though, that memorizing things gets me down. I dont mind studying, but having to memorize pages and pages of Latin bone names, muslces and medical terminology makes me mad, and it makes me depressed. I'm not very good at it, either. I'm better at grasping concepts.
There are things that they're telling us about that aren't only about memorizing things. Histology, for example - where they tell you about the structure of cells and tissue and stuff. Or Biology - Genetics, more precisely. I didn't quite get the point of the Microbiology lecture, but Genetics was interesting. But then, you got Anatomy. Bones were first, now it's muscles. With every muslce of the body, I have to know how it's called in Latin, I have to know where it's fixed to the bone, I have to know what it does, and I have to know which nerve innnervates it. All in medical terminology, of course. And I have to know all of this until November 30th.
It's not that I can't do it, but it depresses me only to think about it. I really want to be a doctor, but I don't know if I can get through six years of this.
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I can understand how all that memorization work would depress you. I suck at memorizing things. Of course, I suck at math and science too, so I wouldn't be able to cope with anything at medical school. I know it's pretty frustrating at the moment, but you obviously have the brains and the drive to be a doctor if you've gotten this far. There's also the fact that you actually want want to be a doctor and believe that it's the right career for you.
This probably won't sound like much consolation, but I'm guessing that in the years to come you'll get used to all the memory work and develop certain routines for studying certain subjects. Right now I think you're still in the adjustment period. I bet that there are a number of students who feel the exact same way you do. Give it some time and see if you feel differently when you've been at this a little longer.
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I'm not sure I'll get used to the memorizing part. I should have taken care of that in high school already, but somehow I always managed to weasel out of learning stuff by heart. But I think I can find a way to make it tolerable. There's gotta be something that I can do to make it less boring. I'll be creative (I already found a way, actually. I keep making up mnemonics that have something to do with Enterprise. I had this really neat one, something about many fanfiction writers liking to write Tu/R slash, to help me remember the foramina in the skull. Unfortunately, I later realized that my foramina were in the wrong order :P ).
Well, anyway, I knew what med school would be like. That's why I was kinda reluctant to enroll in the first place. But now that I'm in, I guess I'm gonna do this. I have to, I wouldn't know anything else I'd want to do (except maybe be a professional fanfiction writer, but I don't think Paramount would like that). And they say that the first semester is the worst. I hope they're right ;).
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I hope what they say is true and things will get easier after the first semester. In the mean time, just try to hang in there. I find a favourite fandom can get you through just about anything. ;-)
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Definitely! When I'm having trouble in real life (or with real life), the first thing I do is go and make my fav chars suffer. Poor Malcolm... he's suffering a lot at the moment X-).
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