Family Woes

[teyla]

Actually, I wanted to make a post about how much I love my favorite show at the moment. I might still do that later on. Right now, my family swept in and killed the mood with ever-present skill.


I love my family. I really do. They're great people, and I get along with them most of the time.

They won't just let me do my thing, though.

I know that I'm not exactly a person with a completely normal lifestyle. I usually sleep during the day, not in the night. I like it better that way. I'm not a very sociable person, meaning I don't seek out the company of others all that much. My life is kinda chaotic. I like it that way, though. My family doesn't. Am I trying to force them to live like I do? No. They're obviously trying to launch another attempt at making me live like they do, though. My parents summoned me for a "conversation" this week-end. I know exactly how this is gonna go: we're all going to sit in the living room, my mom will have made coffee in order to make us all feel like we're just having a casual conversation like any family might on a Saturday afternoon, and then they're going to tell me that I need to change my lifestyle. I will nod and say yes until they finally decide to shut up, and then I will not stay there for the night but drive home because I'm quietly seething with anger, and I will resent them for a couple of weeks, and then everything will start anew.

Why the fuck can't they just leave me alone? I liked it a lot better when I was living 400km away and they didn't see or hear anything that was going on in my life aside from what I decided to let them know. And people wonder why I want to emigrate.

Comments

[chaoskir.livejournal.com]

Yep you are right. You can´t change people. Every peopole have to do their own experience. I really know, my comment dosen´t comfort you but it´s the true and maybe you could bet your mother, that she let you do your own experiences. It´s only your life and only you can live it. You grown up and you do your things. She has done the same as she was in your age. Not her mother lived her life. Maybe you have to say that. Maybe she must hearing the words. Who knows? Be kindly (if you can) while you talk to her. It´s often the best way that she can get the message.
But really it´s weird and it´s no logic in the part that you don´t give unwished advises to anybody and the person reproachs you that you don´t said what you thought. I can´t understand that and I´m saying what I´m thinking, if you ask me. Sometimes I give them a thought if I think that´s neccessary but I don´t want to change everyone and I don´t want to take choises for another persons. I help if they want that. But sometimes it dosen´t matter, what I do it´s in each way wrong. But I don´t understand people (you know, *smile* I have only one brain cell) because I´m not able to live up to the expectations or to fulfill the expectations from some persons. *sigh*
I think you are a wonderful person and I hope you do what you want to do and that will be good for you.

[teyla]

Thank you :). It's always been my belief that people need to know what's best for them, no matter what that is. Pity my mom won't agree. I'll just try to explain it again ^^.

*hugs*