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I kind of want to make a Master/Doctor vid to Korn's Make Me Bad in the style of T. Jonsey's & Killa's Kirk/Spock vid 'Closer' - only much more badly edited, lol. First problem is, I'd need some high quality gay porn for that, preferably bondage, and I don't have any. (Hah hah, see what I did there? I totally just excused my surfing the net all night looking for gay porn with being an ~*artist*~.) Second problem is, I'm not sure I could pull it off, and if you don't pull off a vid like that really well, it just turns out completely ridiculous.
I feel so boring lately. All I do is post Nano in locked posts, and then whine about having to write Nano in the unlocked posts. Lol fail. There's been a whole lot of f-locking going on in this journal lately. There's always some reason to lock my stuff - I guess it's the fact that too many real life people are invading my internet life lately. I don't really mind real life people reading my journal, but I would mind if they started wanting to talk to me about it in a confrontational way. And, yeah, then there's the thing where I whine about real life people on my journal, so lately, those posts usually get locked as well.
I don't like the thought of having to lock entries because people might take offense. It's my personal journal, and I shouldn't have to be ashamed of what I do online (or offline, for that matter), and the thing is, I'm not. To the people that ask, I'm always honest about my fannish and online activities, and it's scared away more than one person. It's just that even the people who accept that you write gay porn on the internet don't deal well with actually being confronted with your gay porn. But being people, of course they will seek it out, and I just don't want that tiresome conversation in which you have to reassure people again and again that you're not a sociopath and won't drag them into an alley and kill them any second, but that you just enjoy writing gay porn on the internet. I don't know where people get the idea that these two things would be related anyway. I mean, I do like knives, and I've uttered death threats, but then, doesn't anybody, and hasn't everybody?
In the end, it's just easier to give in and lock your more offensive shit. Because it makes sure that no-one who isn't down with it will see it, and people will never try and get you to talk about your troublesome childhood that you must have had if you ended up writing/liking/being able to appreciate "these sorts of things". (I've not personally had this experience, but I know someone who did, and it's just something I don't fancy having to put up with.)
The thing is, I'm not even in any way extreme - my journal's quite tame. And yet, even what I'm saying on here, the views I'm expressing, would raise a few eyebrows in RL. Have raised a few eyebrows. Why are all RL people such prudes? And why aren't they when they're online? Do people really need the anonymity of the internet to admit to the fact that yeah, they'd fancy the idea of getting tied up and spanked? I guess they do. And yeah, I do avoid getting into these kind of discussions in RL as well, because I generally don't lie about these things. Actually, I can't. I go all silent and make wide eyes and then people know that my opinion on what they just asked will break quite a few social taboos, and then I can just as well go ahead and tell. However, an expressed openness about these subjects puts a lot of people off, which leads to awkwardness. And awkwardness just isn't any fun.
Anyway. Yeah. Friends-lock. It kinda is a necessary evil, isn't it? At least I always feel like that when I use it. Like I'm taking the easy way out by locking. Idk, maybe I'm just weird that way.
I might have to revoke the opinion I've expressed to a couple of people that Supernatural's forth season is any better than the previous three. The funny episodes are getting funnier, but the srs bzns plot episodes are as ridiculous as ever. There are more funny episodes now, so maybe that raises the general average, but yeah. As soon as they try to do more than have the actors be a couple of huge dorks in front of the camera, they stumble back into the territory of terrible, stereotypical 'characterization' and boring, predictable plot lines. Oh, and the last episode turned this season's 'good' female character into a cheap slut by having her force herself onto an emotionally vulnerable and drunk Sam. And by 'force herself', I mean force herself. She grabbed his hands and stuck them under her shirt and slobbered all over him while he was decidedly not impressed with the whole thing. So, no surprises on that front. Stick with the dorky episodes, SPN. You do them a lot better than the serious ones.
Holy fuck, how is it 5am? How did that happen? Askjhf must go to bed. Lol, this entry is so gratuitous.
I feel so boring lately. All I do is post Nano in locked posts, and then whine about having to write Nano in the unlocked posts. Lol fail. There's been a whole lot of f-locking going on in this journal lately. There's always some reason to lock my stuff - I guess it's the fact that too many real life people are invading my internet life lately. I don't really mind real life people reading my journal, but I would mind if they started wanting to talk to me about it in a confrontational way. And, yeah, then there's the thing where I whine about real life people on my journal, so lately, those posts usually get locked as well.
I don't like the thought of having to lock entries because people might take offense. It's my personal journal, and I shouldn't have to be ashamed of what I do online (or offline, for that matter), and the thing is, I'm not. To the people that ask, I'm always honest about my fannish and online activities, and it's scared away more than one person. It's just that even the people who accept that you write gay porn on the internet don't deal well with actually being confronted with your gay porn. But being people, of course they will seek it out, and I just don't want that tiresome conversation in which you have to reassure people again and again that you're not a sociopath and won't drag them into an alley and kill them any second, but that you just enjoy writing gay porn on the internet. I don't know where people get the idea that these two things would be related anyway. I mean, I do like knives, and I've uttered death threats, but then, doesn't anybody, and hasn't everybody?
In the end, it's just easier to give in and lock your more offensive shit. Because it makes sure that no-one who isn't down with it will see it, and people will never try and get you to talk about your troublesome childhood that you must have had if you ended up writing/liking/being able to appreciate "these sorts of things". (I've not personally had this experience, but I know someone who did, and it's just something I don't fancy having to put up with.)
The thing is, I'm not even in any way extreme - my journal's quite tame. And yet, even what I'm saying on here, the views I'm expressing, would raise a few eyebrows in RL. Have raised a few eyebrows. Why are all RL people such prudes? And why aren't they when they're online? Do people really need the anonymity of the internet to admit to the fact that yeah, they'd fancy the idea of getting tied up and spanked? I guess they do. And yeah, I do avoid getting into these kind of discussions in RL as well, because I generally don't lie about these things. Actually, I can't. I go all silent and make wide eyes and then people know that my opinion on what they just asked will break quite a few social taboos, and then I can just as well go ahead and tell. However, an expressed openness about these subjects puts a lot of people off, which leads to awkwardness. And awkwardness just isn't any fun.
Anyway. Yeah. Friends-lock. It kinda is a necessary evil, isn't it? At least I always feel like that when I use it. Like I'm taking the easy way out by locking. Idk, maybe I'm just weird that way.
I might have to revoke the opinion I've expressed to a couple of people that Supernatural's forth season is any better than the previous three. The funny episodes are getting funnier, but the srs bzns plot episodes are as ridiculous as ever. There are more funny episodes now, so maybe that raises the general average, but yeah. As soon as they try to do more than have the actors be a couple of huge dorks in front of the camera, they stumble back into the territory of terrible, stereotypical 'characterization' and boring, predictable plot lines. Oh, and the last episode turned this season's 'good' female character into a cheap slut by having her force herself onto an emotionally vulnerable and drunk Sam. And by 'force herself', I mean force herself. She grabbed his hands and stuck them under her shirt and slobbered all over him while he was decidedly not impressed with the whole thing. So, no surprises on that front. Stick with the dorky episodes, SPN. You do them a lot better than the serious ones.
Holy fuck, how is it 5am? How did that happen? Askjhf must go to bed. Lol, this entry is so gratuitous.
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*smile* So, it's working here and that's good for me.
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Still, I would never under the guise of my alias say/write/do stuff that crosses my own lines.
Am I making sense? Anyway, that's my f-locking policy. People can't really take offense, because only my friends see what I'm f-locking, right? Maybe it is an easy way out, but on the other hand, there is some information I only want my friends to know. I don't friend a lot of people, only people I feel I can trust and are 'real' friends, and my f-locked posts are only for Mutual Friends and some even for Very Good Mutual Friends, so, yeah. I guess that's a bit weird, too.
I'm definitely not making sense. If you manage to exert a coherent thought of of this, please let me know... ♥
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